So, its Mothers day and Im already not really feeling it, right. So the breakfast is made, the one card is opened and everyone goes back to what they all do most, the internet tablets and computers. I kinda didn’t mind, I actually wanted a day all by myself. Later, I went shopping guilty feeling after a 26 dollar payout to Bath and Body Shop and 45 dollars on my paid off Kohls card. So, I went shopping for myself, I deserve it. After all, I buy everyone else shoes, pants, and shirts. Why in the world do I have to feel guilty for spending my own money on myself? Where does the feeling come from? Who taught me that anything I buy can’t go to me.
Now, it’s 10 P.M. at night and everyone goes to bed. EVERYONE! Im stuck alone doing laundry until well past 11 P.M. No one asked me if they could do it for me, and you know who Im talking about…Im tired, Ive been debating again whether to leave when planned and the more I think about it I have too. Yeah he’s been nice yadda yadda yadda but I feel like I don’t matter enough. Tonight is a perfect example, he knew I was doing laundry he didn’t even offer to help.
I guess Happy Mothers day to me, the kids laundry still needs to be done..goodnight while you slave drive through the night while I watch whatever on the computer. (FU)
I guess I sorta expected this, Im exausted, I'm wishing things would change, I have to make the change. If I want things done nice for me I will do the deed. RIGHT? I mean who told me to rely on others to show they care and want to do whatever for me. I think Im done now...Im so exhausted.
