Cant I sleep?

Sometimes I lay in my bed in the floor and wonder what position I would be when I die.  I lay yther either omn emy back or my stomach and wonder would my eys be closed would my hands be in fists or open?
Now why would I want to know all of this? Because I would be a sleep thats why.  Lately, I have had a lack of sleep. Tonight it was my daughter who woke up at 2 am and had to break the ice to have water.  Usually, its him getting food to eat after work. Like they all know Im trying to sleep out here.but they all insist of making as much noise in the kitchen.  Thats why i wonder what its like to be dead, i  can't hear anything. Id be dead.
I fucking hate my life right now